After nearly two months of sitting on my butt playing video games I've finally gotten off the couch and back out the door. I have lacked motivation on a scale that you may not believe coming from me. I have wallowed around unable to get my head on straight because getting back to where I was a few short years ago seems like such an obstacle. The very idea that I could get back into the shape I was in back in 2008 seems
insurmountable. Truth be confessed I must own up to the fact that I am my own obstacle. The whole vault boy idea was a metaphor of how I was feeling and was supposed to be a creative way for me to once again have some fun mixed with exercise. But I'm leaving that behind. One reason is I don't have time to be as creative as I would like to be over there. Here at least I can have a little fun now and then but I can also just keep it real when I want to.
So as for keeping it real. For the past two weeks I have been back out on the streets and have racked up 29+ miles. During the week I've been focusing on walking under a 16 min pace. On the weekends I've done long wogs of 6 and 7 miles. Those averaged in the 13s for a pace. My comfortable running pace is in the 11s but last Sunday I managed two 1/4 sprints in the 9s. I need to be consistent and not over do it here so I'm going to work on keeping the jogging portions in the 11 range and streaching out the distances. Hopefully that approach will be the best for my cardio. My feet hate the fact that I'm carrying around an unwanted 50 lbs. I need to lose that but I am finding that I am still stress eating and that is just putting back in the calories I burn.
I am considering doing the Des Moines half in October. I like the idea of a pre Disney goal but shades of past injury from that race haunt me. I also am concerned that I could fall into a past race lag and not keep training at the level I really need to be. I know at some point I need to declare the fears for what they are and face them. I know what caused my injury in Des Moines and it was lack of arch support. I've since gotten arch supports and run a number of races without incident. So why the fear? I think it comes down to this, consistency equals confidence. Confidence does grow but you have to keep at it.
So Raise your hand
(i just realised this post reads like it was sponsered by a deoderant ad. this was unintentional)